Thursday, March 5, 2009

Old Yeller

I'm mean.

I yelled (profanities and all) at my sweet co-worker and friend today. And I can't even tell you how many different people have asked, "Are you okay?" in the last few days. Sure, the work situation is ridiculous (hey, are you interested in a temporary cooking gig?), but is it really necessary for me to resort to making folks retreat from my presence?

Apparently so.

And as I was driving home from work tonight, I reflected on my fit (and subsequent apology), I had to wonder if Angry Girl is my true persona. I like to think myself a pretty amicable gal. I hope folks like to hang with me and I'm a pretty good friend. But if insomnia + too much workplace + household obligations = nasty bitch, doesn't that make me nasty bitch at the core?

Man, I hope not. I'll have to rewrite my Match profile if that's true.

1 comment:

Jillster said...

With all the changes and stress in your life lately, it's not surprising that your inner nasty bitch has reared her head. That doesn't mean that this is who you are...just that you're human, and reacting in a very human way to situations in which you are not in complete control.

Everybody gets driven to that ragged edge every now and then.